This feels really weird cuz I've never blogged before. I think it will give me a chance to finally journal. I have a lot going on right now...all good things, but I'm finding it overwhelming. I'm fighting the urge to wait for the other shoe to drop... I see the signs so clearly. I am totally aware of when I start to self-sabotage. It's like I am afraid of success. I know, that sounds so cliche'. I guess I miss having someone to share my life with.
I'm in the middle of reading LUCKY by Alice Seberg. It's bringing a lot up for me, cuz of my own similar traumas. All good though...Once you tell the truth it stops hurting you. I'm a big quote person. I relate to that. That's why I am open about my diagnosis of clinical depression. I'm sick of being ashamed of it, of being scared of being judged.
Gotta go work on my lines for ALICE IN THE HOUSE OF CARROLL. I know the blocking now, so it's a lot easier to memorize.
Red Dress
Sleepy
About Me
Up Against A Wall
The first painting I did primarily on my own.